Aint life grand ....

Starting to feel better today .... slowly ... one step at a time ...

Isn't hindsight amazing ... something that seems so painful today that you cannot handle you cannot cope, you feel like your whole world is collapsing ... then later .. sometimes years you find out the reasons why things happened that way and that it all just makes sense....

My theme song for today is Let me go (3 Doors down). It means alot right now and in time it will all make sense ... I hope anyway.

I am still drawing the "focus" card ... wonder what Jordan (my guide) is trying to tell me ...

well anyway ... I am very tired and need to take a whole lot of screaming monkeys (kids) to Gold Reef City tomorrow ... YAY .. she says sarcastically ...

Thank-you J for being here for me now and always ... you have always been such a blessing in my life ... and thank you for helping me to find peace ... I promise to stop being so dam stubborn and to stop hanging on so tightly ... I know you mean well and I trust you ...