Trapped

I keep coming back to this same theme for some reason – I guess I am exploring the many ways this is so true.

We are all wardens in a prison, we all keep this prisoner tightly locked up so that they can never escape. Who is this prisoner? YOU are …

There are so many ways we keep ourselves prisoners, we feel stuck, we feel trapped, we feel alone, cold, we feel scared and the only thing we really have to do is unlock ourselves from the prison – WE HOLD THE KEY!

At the moment I am dealing with being locked in self protection – I am so scared of being hurt that I have created a wall around my heart to protect it. It is well covered and tightly snug there – so that no-one can enter into it and no-one can cause me pain. The irony is that while my heart is so wrapped up and “safe” – it is dark and it is cold and the light cannot come in.

At the same time as I am protecting myself from the harm that may or may not happen I am blocking the light, I am blocking love from coming in. By this I don’t mean romantic love – I mean love from all sources around me. The smile of a child, the beauty of a flower, that first breath of fresh air in the morning, a mothers love, a fathers care, a sisters hugs. All these things are being blocked.

Yes there is pain out there and yes, each time we open our hearts we risk feeling the pain of our past – the hurt, the anguish, the loss – but if we close ourselves off we also risk the other side of pain, which is love, beauty, joy, bliss.

I speak from my experience here, when I say that on the other side of pain is love but to get to that love we need to walk through the pain. We need to acknowledge the pain and we need to love ourselves so much through this. Pain is there to teach us – to help us learn to love ourselves more. To learn compassion for ourselves. To treat ourselves as we would a crying child – hug ourselves, love ourselves, treat ourselves well, spoil ourselves and allow ourselves to be loved by those around us. Our mothers, our fathers, our sisters and our friends.

We need to take a moment to be comforted by ourselves and those around us and to walk through this pain. Then we need to learn that we can get through pain – and that once we have walked through the pain, our hearts will be renewed and refreshed and will flow once again with love – Divine love, but we need to keep our hearts open and be willing to allow the love of the divine into our hearts and allow it to overflow – IT WILL!

To my very special friend who is going through the same thing as me right now and I truly hope he reads this and takes this to heart.